I am a Martha

Happy Monday!
Today's post comes from my wonderful friend Carolina. I read this last night and identified so much with her struggle. Praying that God may speak to you in a very special way through her. From one Martha to all the Martha's out there, this word is for you:

It's strange how the first place I thought of sharing this was on the blog, not sure why. I come here feeling heavy, lonely, confused. I joke saying this is my "quarter life crisis" but it really isn't, this is a petty issue that I have rolled into a huge snowball of sillyness.

I am Martha, I am the person who has 35 things to do, 5 places to be, all in one day. It's a bit absurd, thinking to myself this is healthy, normal. I've come to realize that I'm martha (Luke 10:38-41). I'm that girl that gets herself so busy, and preoccupied that she doesn't even see Jesus is a guest at her house.

I don't want to worry, I don't want to be anxious about things anymore. God revealed to me that my "god" were my life plans. I had such a tight grip on them, they were MINE and no one else's. No one was allowed to interfere, I was shaken to my core realizing this is what is preventing me from coming to Jesus fully.

In the multitude of my anxieties within me, Your comforts delight my soul. Psalms 94:19 I remember this verse way back when, It made me feel hopeful that there is someone greater who can comfort me. The enemy is fighting for my attention, he wants me to fall on my face and let my desires/worries lead me to a place where I exclude God from everything.

FOR HIS YOLK IS EASY AND HIS BURDEN IS LIGHT.

I want to feel His love again, I need to immerse myself in His river. Taking steps to fall in love with my savior...MY JOY IS NOT FOUND IN THE INCONSISTENCIES OF LIFE BUT IN THE CONSISTENCY OF GOD.


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